Just trying to get my brain to work for the next 2 weeks.

…that my friends won’t even follow me?

Seriously what the FUCK is wrong with me. If you’re reading this, I want you to know I’m beyond sorry. You trusted me, and I let you down. I can’t even express how much I regret this. I don’t know what came over me. You were so kind to me and I fucked everything up. I know you said you wouldn’t give me another chance but please find it in you to see past my stupid mistake and look at the rest of who I am. Because the part of me that fucked up is not the part that I want to be. I just don’t know what else I can say at this point, because you probably will never forgive me for this and nothing I say or do can fix my mistake. I can only ask that you look beyond it and find it in yourself to give me a second chance. Because that part of me that did this isn’t who you got to know, who you talked to. I haven’t regretted something so much since my freshman year of high school. Fuck, I really hate myself right now. You were a good friend to me. You were nice to me. I enjoyed talking to you so damn much and now it’s over. Finished, ended, stopped, whatever words you want to use. I don’t know what else to say. I ruined everything, and it’s not the first time. I want to end this by saying that I’m sorry but I know that it’s just going to make things worse, but I’m sorry.

…where I’m questioning what I’m doing with my life. I slept through the majority of my anthropology class today and all I remember is the professor talking about the oldest bones and some weird names of things. Now I’m in the library trying to figure out what kind of mood I’m in and what to listen to while I catch up on reading Frankenstein. Seriously, this is not what I want to be doing with my life.

But no one reads this shit anyways.

I seriously don’t even care right now.

I couldn’t even bring myself to get help finding the books I need for my research paper.

I really just wish people had mute switches.